People Don’t Even Notice Us

It’s insane that people who don’t drink a lot or smoke a lot of weed fail to realize just how fucked off everyone around them stays all the time.

One of my old bosses Marcus was smoking a cigarette in the parking lot with me one night after work when he said “I know you and Jeremy drink before every shift. I know you and the kind of people you like to be around.” He sort of chuckled as he took another hit. “Jeremy straight up snitched on himself… I walked in and could smell alcohol on someone’s breath so I said something. Jeremy spouted off right away ‘It wasn’t me I have gum in my mouth.’”

Marcus was a really cool boss. He actually used to deal coke and stayed fucked off most of the time, but he’s straight now. I always used Marcus as my conscience… as in I asked home before I did anything- or anyone. We’ll visit more of that aspect tomorrow.

So tonight I went and ate dinner at my dads house, fried spam and broccoli rice. Since I’m not aloud by the state (and my family) to drink on my way there I stopped and downed two tall boys* at the Kwik Stop.

While at my dads house they couldn’t even tell I had a slight buzz and when I asked for a glass of his home-made sangria he made a huge deal about how it was only gonna be one glass and blah blah blah.

An hour later I left and swung by the trusty Kwik Stop again and drove the long way back home and chugged a six pack. Feeling well enough to go home for the night I walked casually into my sisters house (where I live) and held a conversation with them before retreating to my room.

My sister said if I drank so much as one beer she’d kick me out… she never knows when I go out all night to the bars or drink my ass off in the way home.

I down about three doses of Zquil and lay down in bed hoping to pass out quickly.

It dawns on me that I have probation in the morning so hopefully they don’t piss test me. If they do I’m fucked.

*tall boys are single 24oz cans of beer they sell at fast stations. Each can is about two normal beers.

About Myself

You probably guessed it- my name is not Stacee Jaxx. This is simply the name I came up with to tell my ridiculous stories.

Drinking beer is my favorite past time and if it wasn’t for being on probation, I would drink from the moment I woke up until the moment I went to bed (which is what got me in so much trouble in the first place). Of course I’m not supposed to drink at all for the 15 months I’ve been sentenced to probation for a DWI but fuck it… I like beer.

All stories I tell are true but names and dates have been changed to protect everyone’s identities- after all we’d all be in a shit ton of trouble if we got caught. I would also like to add that being an alcoholic is not a glorious way of life, and hopefully by reading this story you will understand that.